Ep 20 - Your Disability: A Gift or a Challenge?

In this enlightening episode, we tackle the intricate dynamics of disabilities and their profound impact on our lives. Sharing personal stories of resilience and struggle, we delve into how disabilities can often reveal hidden blessings and lessons that shape our perspectives and interactions. Both hosts bravely confront their own experiences with disabilities, offering listeners a candid look at the discrimination faced and the emotional turmoil that often accompanies such battles.

Through heartfelt discussions about faith and empowerment, we explore biblical teachings that affirm the value of all individuals, regardless of their physical abilities. Our conversations challenge the conventional narratives surrounding disabilities, highlighting the need for compassion, empathy, and understanding from the community. With spirit and honesty, we share how our journeys are not just about overcoming obstacles but embodying a unique grace that only our experiences can offer.

As we reflect on the importance of education and patience in bridging gaps between different experiences, we encourage our audience to embrace each other in love and understanding. By doing so, we can create a world that recognizes the inherent worth in every individual, paving the way for a more inclusive society. Join us for this empowering discussion that will inspire you to think differently and foster a kinder connection with those around you. Don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a thoughtful review!

Transcript

Introduction

SPEAKER_00 0:01

Hey Saints, welcome back to the Unfiltered Christian podcast. I'm Cece and I'm Shay. And today is our 20th episode. Woo woo. And um I thought we'll shout out some listeners that we haven't actually said hey to. So we have um Sutherland in the UK, near Newcastle upon Tyne. Then we've got Sutherland in Washington, DC. Um in the UK we have Reading, Bromley, Wembley, Tower Hamlet, Southwark, Fulham, Wolfhamstorrus, Croydon, then back to America. We've got Virginia in Harrisonburg, and then we've got Cleveland and Redcart in Gisborough. So shout out to you guys and thank you for listening and supporting.

SPEAKER_01 0:55

Wow, that's a lot of people. Thank you for listening, guys. That's amazing.

SPEAKER_00 1:00

Yeah. I see our Americans are going up as well.

SPEAKER_01 1:06

I've noticed that actually. The track they're leveling up with the with the British.

SPEAKER_00 1:11

Okay. We welcome you all. So today is my question. And my question to you, Shay, it's a personal one. Oh. Um when Yahweh gave you your disability, did you see it as a blessing or a hindrance?

SPEAKER_01 1:40

This is definitely a personal one.

SPEAKER_00 1:43

And please describe your disability before you answer your questions, but those who do it.

SPEAKER_01 1:48

I was gonna, yeah, I was thinking of doing that. So um you have to break it down, I guess. So I was born with a condition called albinism, which means I was born with little to no skin pigmentation. Um, so my hair is blonde, my eyelashes are blonde, my eyebrows are blonde, my skin is very pale. Um the only way you can tell that I have ever so slightly um a touch of pigmentation is because my hair is more of like a golden blonde than a like a really white colour. Um, I think that's the best way to describe it. Um lived with it all my life, you're born with it. Um it's genetic, um, so both of your parents have to carry the albinism genes to be able to have a child with albinism. Um growing up, a lot of people think it's only comes from one parent, but it's not correct. Um and you also don't, you you actually don't know if you carry that gene. Um it's like if you have, I don't know, in your family, I don't know, you might have blue eyes or you might have, you know, like all these different types of genes that you you just don't necessarily know. But in in this case, you both have to be the only way you would know you have it is if you produce a child with albumism, because you both have to carry the genes. So with that, it comes with very sensitive skin, uh, very sensitive to the sun, but the main thing is probably the visual impairment or partially sighted. Um, that's the main main thing. And so my vision is quite bad. Um I I feel like it's amazing. I will say it's amazing, and the reason why I say that is because um I'm going forward to back here. So I've now come to the conclusion of the fact that God has blessed me to be able to see, to be able to like live my life. Because when I went to the optometrist last year, and when she showed me a picture of my eye, which I've never seen before, so the back of your eye, all of her eyes, should have a dark yellow colour. And mine is only in spots, like you only see a little dark yellow here, a little dark yellow there. Um, so the strongest, my strongest eye is my right. So you see a bit more dark yellow and reds, I think. There's supposed to be like some reds in my right eye, but in my left eye, you can literally hardly see any of that. And even still in my right eye, you can't see a lot of it. Um and the fact that I'm able to live on my own and take care of myself and take care of my son, I I didn't realize how much of a blessing that was until a few months ago. Now, whether I saw it as a blessing, no. Never did. Um, because I faced and still do sometimes, but when I was younger, it was worst. I faced so much discrimination, so much scrutiny, so much attack physically and verbally from people. I would say when I say I wouldn't say round around the world because I faced it in different countries. So I live in the UK, so I faced it here. Um, I was born in Guyana, which is in South America. Um, also faced it there. Um, but it wasn't as bad when I because I was born there, it wasn't as bad at that time. Um, because some people knew me, some people knew my parents. So it wasn't as bad, I think, anyways, from my memory. Um, but I did have children in school that didn't want to play with me because they felt scornful of me. They felt like I looked very, very just, yeah, just completely different. Um, and they felt scared to play with me. And then when I came to England when I was nine, I thought, oh gosh, this is a fresh start, amazing, you know, I'm gonna be loved, it's gonna be amazing. And my bullying was way worse. Um, to the point where my dad had to take me out of my first primary school and change me to another one. And I think that happened even within the first year of me being here, actually. Because when I think about it, sorry, I came here in early year four, which would probably be grade four in America, um, if I'm correct. Um, but I was, yeah, I was in the early stages of nine, I guess. So the early first part of the year of nine. So when I I definitely got moved within that year because by the end of year four, I was already in another school. Um, so it was that bad, but it that's where I got the physical bullying and the attacks. So because of that foundation that was laid through the attacks, through the bullying and discrimination, it brought me a lot of trauma. A lot of trauma that stayed with me into my adulthood. So I have it, it's taken me a very long time to see it as a blessing. And to be honest, I'm not gonna say I still fully see it as a blessing. I'm gonna be very honest and candid with you guys because it can be really, really tough because there's times where I can I'm going through life and I feel fine, and then someone will come and remind me that I look different in some way. Like I might get a funny stare or a pointing or a laughing, or I've had an experience where people have taken done videos of me and been laughing or taking pictures of me and that kind of stuff. Um, so like you you just get reminded of it. Um, and so there's times where I've struggled to look in the mirror. Um, there's times where I did not want to look like me. So I did a lot of like wigs and wig caps and all these different things, like to change my hair so that I wouldn't be quote unquote as noticeable. I wore a lot of fake eyelashes and did my eyebrows. Like I tried to alter my look as much as I could. But this is how I know Yahweh was in me. I didn't go to the dramatic extent that I could have, like dyeing my hair. Like I tried that one time when I was 18. Like my hair got ruined, I was upset. So I'm like, I didn't do it again. But like the dramatic extent I could have gone to um maybe doing plastic surgery, maybe like, do you know what I mean? Like I could have gone out my way, which and there was one point I wanted to do plastic surgery for a part of my body. Um, I was like planning on doing it, and then I by the time I got the m started working to make the type of money that I would be able to do it, I feel like Yahweh removed that for me because I was adamant that I was gonna do that plastic surgery. Um so I I haven't I'm still working on seeing it as a blessing, I guess, because I'm open enough to talk about it. Um I did used to have a YouTube page and I did used to try my best to show people that even though I am visually impaired and I look different, that my life is I'm I still have a life. I can still do things. Um and the thing that Yahweh tries to show me is that at the end of the day, at least I still have my hands and feet and I can walk and I can talk and my organs are functioning. You know, I don't have I don't have a serious illness, so why not be grateful? Um and so that's something I'm still working on, I would say. But I see the blessings here and there, if that if that makes sense. Like I'm building up to have full hmm, how do I describe it? Like a full, like to fully see it as a blessing. So at the moment, like I don't fully, it's like I see it here and there. Um but I'm I'm I don't think I'm there yet, in honesty. But yeah, I could talk for a minute, so I don't know if you got another question before I continue talking. Because as you can tell, guys, it's quite a passionate subject of mine. Like I'm very open to talking about it because I just feel like education is key, and I feel like a lot of people who have attacked me is lack of education. Um, but in that moment you don't see it that way because your feelings has been hurt. Um and it stays with you to know that people are physically doing this type of things to you in public where other people are seeing as well.

SPEAKER_00 11:03

Um it shows us that Yahweh is sovereign even over disabilities, because I came across a Bible text in Exodus 4 verses 11. Um, and this is like the Lord talking to Moses, and he says, So the Lord said to him, Who has made man's mouth, or who has made, or who makes the mute, the deaf, the seeing, or the blind? Have not I the Lord, and so it's kind of like the Lord gives us these things without us realizing, um, as you pointed out, that many people are not aware that they have a disability until externals come in and external meaning, it could be somebody that's not in your everyday household, you didn't realize that you have um a disability. But here in Exodus, the Lord is saying that he gave it to us. Um, some people are born with a disability, and some people are born without a disability and then get a disability. Um but I think the powerful thing about it is that we're all made in his image. Uh, the reason why I wanted to talk about this topic is because many of us um have a disability, and I was watching a lady in America who um was blessed with twins, amen. Um and she had a a C-section, and the C-section got infected, and she caught sepsis. And um, I even had to Google what sepsis is because I it's it's a really serious infection. But due to the fact that I think within a day, like her fingers and started going black, her legs started going black, so now she's lost one of her legs and both of her arms, like from her elbow go down to her hands. Gosh. And um and hearing her say, and her husband say that you know they're happy that she's alive, and she's happy that she's alive, and she wanted to be a mum, and yes, she doesn't have hands anymore, and she has to wear like um I forgot what they call them. The prost is it prostate legs, yeah. Yeah, and he's able to see her children grow up where she could have died. And it just fumbles you. Um, like I was born um deaf in one ear. My mum took notice of that from when I was a child, I didn't realise that I was deaf in one ear until I got to secondary school. Um Wow. Yeah, my mum told me, so I was aware of it, but I wasn't aware of it. Does that make sense? Yeah, because it wasn't it wasn't highlighted, it wasn't like you know I could still hear and my family was aware of it. Um, but when I got to school, um secondary school, there was a pastor there, and he always used to be like, Can you hear me? Can you hear me? And it was annoying. Wow, and that was an adult, and he's like, Am I on your good air? Can you hear me? Can you hear me? And I was thinking, Oh gosh, okay. Um, yeah, so that was the first time I was just like, Oh yeah, like I actually cannot hear out of one ear, but it didn't bother me. I wasn't ashamed to say, like, if I was around new people, I'd be like, by the way, I'm deaf in one ear. But I think for me, I'm the opposite. A lot of people think that I'm lying because they're like, but you could hear so well. Um, so it's just like, yeah, but if you if you stand on my left side, I won't be able to um hear you. But I would say that with lockdown, it made my hearing worse. Um, because in lockdown I had a car accident, so I didn't have a car anymore, and um and then we was at home. So my uh had to when we started to go outside, everything seemed louder. I had to still I'm still trying to um navigate now that I got a car back, praises be. Like when people are now on my left side, if music is playing, I now have to adapt because all these years I've been driving, my my my body got used to it, and then now not having a car just for how long was it? Like eight, nine months, not even a year, but like nine months. Months, and my body's now having to try and adjust to hering. Um but it's funny because I don't see myself as having a disability, even though quote unquote I am in society, but I just see it as I have one less thing, but I'm still me.

SPEAKER_01 16:20

Yeah, completely get that. Um that does happen though when you are maybe lacking one area in your body. Um it makes completely complete sense what you're saying in regards to having to like readjust and stuff like that, because I have to readjust with my eyes loads of times. Um and I I've been having a lot of um is it is it called abrasions, but like a lot of eye injuries basically. Um I had one last year when I went on holiday, which was horrible, guys. It was horrible. Imagine being on holiday and you can't see. I mean, literally can't see. Um I could I couldn't see for like a few days because my eye was it's scratched. I don't know how it got scratched. I just woke up this morning one morning and it was scratched, and I literally couldn't see on my eye, and I I had no clue of what was the best solution. Eventually ended up in AE and spent a whole day in AE basically. Um, and then it took another day to heal. Um, but yeah, it does happen when you're lacking in that area, like when people think that you're lying in regards to your hearing, it's because your right ear has learnt to carry that that that kind of I don't even know what's the correct word here, but it's learned to carry the the the do the work basically for both ears in a sense. Um, so it makes sense why um people would think that it's the same with my vision, like I think a lot of people did not realize, which I'm quite shocked about because I'm thinking I put I have to put things close to my face a lot of the time, but through bullying and stuff, I've always tried to not make it obvious. I think that's just what it is, but I've always pushed my eye um to do more, but I don't think it's necessarily just my eye. My hearing is very enhanced because of lack of vision. So, like, for example, I think that's the reason why I didn't think I could live in my own, because I got used to the environment I was in with my parents and like got used to the route, like like route when I say like bus routes and stuff like that. So I always felt like I would struggle to readjust to like different environments if I have to move or move around. Um, I always thought that would be a problem for me because like when I lived with my parents and I used to wait for the bus to work, I knew the sound of each engine of the bus. So there was an option of two buses, and I knew what the engine of one bus sounded like and what the other one sounded like. So even I'm looking, I can't see the number of the bus. So for me to know what bus to stop, I used to listen to the sound of the engine.

SPEAKER_00 19:18

Um how powerful Yahweh is because I think everybody has had a time in their life where they've hurt their foot or they've done something where you're less able for a couple of days, and you realize how you can balance, like the way how he just reshuffles us. Like, I'm not saying that it's easy, but you know, I remember when I hurt my right hand, like I had to force my left hand, like my my left hand just started to just things like you could do, yeah. And it's amazing that how our father is, and how he created us, yeah, yeah. And then I was even looking through, like, when I was gonna ask you this question about um people in the Bible that um that had a disability.

SPEAKER_01 20:08

I've researched this, yeah. It's amazing.

SPEAKER_00 20:10

Yeah, and then I was thinking to myself, I'm just gonna go through some, just in for people that don't know. Um, so there was a man called um Mephiboshet, I believe.

SPEAKER_01 20:24

Mephiboshef, yeah, I was gonna say him Mephiboshef, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 20:27

Um he was crippled in both of his feet after being dressed as a child. Yes, but despite his disability, King David showed him kindness because of his covenant with um Jonathan. That's in 2 Samuel 4 verses 4 and 2nd Samuel chapter 9, and then we have the Moses speech impediment, um, he struggled to speak, um, but look, he look how many people he led. Um, you could find that in Exodus 4 verses 10 and 12, and then you had the man that was born blind in John chapter 9, verses 1 to 7, and Jesus healed him. Um, there was Paul, Paul had a fawn in his flesh, which many believe was a physical alignment, and that's in 2 Corinthians 12 verses 7 to 9, and then he had Jacob. So after um Jacob was wrestling with the angel, he was left with a limp for the rest of his yes, of course, because they um the angel did he break his hip? Um I can't remember, but it's in Genesis.

SPEAKER_01 21:45

Yeah, he did something to his hip. I think he actually did break it, but but guys don't remember.

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SPEAKER_00 21:50

But it's in definitely 32 verses 24 to 31. Okay. Um, and his physical weakness was a reminder of his spiritual incapacity. encounter with God and it's just like sometimes we don't understand, we don't know why. We see sometimes things as a hindrance. Um but it's just to it's just to look above it sometimes. And I know it's especially more harder for people who wasn't born that way and then especially throughout their adult life if they then have a disability because that's a massive readjustment. And I would just say like to parade and you will have people that are mean and cruel but the narrow path is not easy. We deal with cruel people every day we're even teaching our children about them. You know sometimes we too can be cruel and mean without us even realizing um and um what was I gonna say there was something that came up in to me um like even today it's like I I wear air earbuds and I have to wear both of them because if I don't wear if I wear my left one which I can't hair out of if I don't wear it sorry people think that I could hear them but I can't so I have to wear both of them even though I can't hair out of my right ear. Well I can't really say I can't hear I can pick up vibrations so I could pick up but sometimes I could hear sounds that people can't hear because the vibration is very very strong so when like um the microphone goes like that is it's so dangerous to me like it's a pitch. I'm like oh I pick up on vibrations and um today I couldn't find my headphone and I was just like how am I gonna hear because I can't hear out of the the the left the left ear but I can't but I can't find my right headphone but there was something that you said that the Holy Spirit just reminded me of is because I can't hear in one of my ears my sense of smell is so strong the same way your hearing is more stronger to balance out your vision. And it's amazing how he just helps us like even people who are blind like how they hear stuff and they could say like oh this and this is coming and you think oh okay and it's just amazing that yes we lack one thing but he blesses us so much more in other stuff without us realizing it's true amen.

SPEAKER_01 24:45

Funny enough I saw a blind man on the bus um yesterday and someone was about to sit down and they didn't sit down because they saw him rocking and I thought well that's not a reason why to not sit down. I need to like I'm gonna sit down you know um because I can see that person bypass them. Now God forgive me because that might not necessarily be the reason but I just feel like you can just I know what that's like basically to be on the bus and I've seen people avoid sitting next to me because they don't want to be near me. Yeah so I I just maybe that was just my thing that popped up in my head but I just felt like that's why he was like people avoided sitting next to him. But so I didn't know he was blind I just saw him rock in. So I saw his face down and I saw him rock in and I thought well it's not doing anything so do you know what I mean just there's no harm in sitting next to him at all and then as he heard the his stop and he pressed the button so he knew what button to press um and I thought oh I don't know like I was just amazed you know you're observing somebody because I thought ooh what what does he have like what's going on and then I then I saw him take out his stick I was like oh my gosh he's blind like I did not see that at all and just watching him maneuver like I I couldn't stop looking at him but it wasn't in a negative I just was so amazed to watch him maneuver getting off the bus yeah and like how to step down because the bus was still quite high and I wanted to go and help him but then I didn't want to I know that people like to keep their independence yeah and he probably already knew what to do but it just amazed me because I just thought for me I'm I'm visually impaired right so I I still rely on my eyes um a lot and there's times where I could make that step and I could fall because I didn't see properly um so when I saw the way he got off the bus I was amazed I couldn't stop looking at him I was just like wow this is just blowing my mind and I just thought he his hearing is is so enhanced um and I feel that if I was blind I wouldn't be as brave to want to go outside I don't think I would because knowing that I cannot see at all and the world that we live in people are so cruel like people could you you could have the one out of a thousand that would take advantage of that person.

SPEAKER_00 27:16

And I just think in my head I just this is that's what I mean by walking by faith like there that's walking by faith for me because I don't I just don't know if I could and especially in the nighttime like he's maneuvering with his stick to walk himself home yeah and I was just amazed by that I really was but lucky for him he doesn't know well in in his time he knows it's night or day but it's he's in darkness yeah I mean yeah he yeah yeah he but I'm sure he's aware in it like this there's so many he it's just I don't know it just blew my mind seeing that the world isn't built for blind people I realized that the other day when I was in a lift I was thinking if the lift stops and they say um can you read me where your location they cannot and there's no braille for that that's true there's a braille for the numbers but there's no braille for the floor is it to know where you stopped that's true.

SPEAKER_01 28:11

Not the floor like sometimes when you press the button they would ask for the location where you are so they know what where to send the people to get to get you like they would say like it was there's a special code on the lift oh I see what you mean now there's no braille for it so if they're gonna say can you please read me the the number then yeah that's true that's actually true that's a good point wow yeah it isn't it isn't made for I mean even I made a complaint at work this week they've they've brought in a new um system a new app system for for everything that we have to do at work um so they're removing the files and stuff and they're bringing in this new system and I complained because I was like this app is not visually impaired friendly so you have parts that are big and then there's parts where you want me to focus on on the app where like it's like a quick it's called a quick note or whatever. And if you see how small it is like it is tiny right and imagine the people that wear glasses are saying it's tiny. So what does it look like for me? You know like it's so small. And then when the trainer like raised it the process that they want me to go through for this to be dealt with it's like it's I find it a bit ridiculous because they're like oh your manager has to raise it with IT but I'm like I don't think IT even made the app so it do you like it's it was just so confusing. So it's like okay you have to raise a ticket with IT so I'm like why is there not a direct person that you can just address an email to if that makes sense instead of having to go through this process because raising a ticket is like raising a ticket of any issue. Do you get my point? So this is a specialized issue so how are they gonna deal with that? I just think like with like I'm I I've been in my company for 15 years and I've rarely had support when it comes to my vision and I think that that's why I've stayed in a job that's physical because when you when it comes to like having visual impairment and stuff like it's not easy like and when people say like people say yeah there's laws and people have to make adjustments but the the the process they want to make you go through just to receive that help it can be really frustrating and sometimes I think that's why like I push my eyes to just see even though I can't see properly like I'll just force myself but that causes me mindrains um bad mindrains um it causes my eyes to feel like really strained and blurry and sometimes I feel it feels a bit dark and warm and like all these different things it puts a lot of pressure on my eyes and it can be really frustrating but sometimes like what you have to go through to get that help it can just be so it could just be so frustrating and you just can't be bothered. Well I can't be bothered because you just feel like you're begging at times so it can be really frustrating. So like I'm still going through that battle at work as well where I'm just trying to push myself to stand up for myself you know because with me I have the same thing with my colleagues I think they they don't realize or they completely forget that I can't see properly because I'll just get on with it. But then when they like come and like try to point out stuff and I'm like but you do understand that that was not intentional like I was I was not able to see that. But it's like they will come and attack me for it first instead of coming to me and then I start feeling I start attacking myself saying why couldn't you see it? Why could you know so it it can be really tough and like once again that's what I say where you're reminded that you're different. I think that's the best way to say it.

SPEAKER_00 32:05

And I guess with humans as well we all have expectations of our mind of how we see things so I would use Shay for example um I I'm aware of her like you know like if it gets dark she might not be able to see or certain things like that because we've been friends for a very long time. So I'm just aware of certain things that my mind will just click on. However somebody else probably seeing her maybe in a a a little dim or not so dark situation will be like oh well you could see through here why can't you see now and I think that's the things that we need to stop when we're dealing with anybody not to just assume or to make up something if somebody's saying that they need help whether they was able to do it when it was a little bit dark or she's been there before so she's used to that environment she's familiar to not all automatically judge when dealing with somebody that has a disability to just always see it as a new situation. Before I used to be able to um listen to music and listen to somebody in the car but now I can't because I'm having to learn it again. And now people don't have patience with me when I'm driving and I'm like oh can you say that again because it's hard to concentrate because I need to concentrate to listen so I'm not missing out on what you're saying but I'm also driving so I'm concentrat my eyes are concentrating on the road and I now people now get irritated because it's just like well all these years you could hear why can't you hear now and when I tried to explain to them about lockdown not having a car anymore like for those periods has really set me back but for them they don't understand and I just got to the point where I used to get upset when I'm like no just say it again because they're getting frustrated like the third time saying it but it's like you're on my deaf side so I can't hear you. So it got to the point where I just started praying for people to just be patient and if they don't want to say it's okay like neither of us should get upset like if they're tired of repeating it's okay I can't hear and that and that's life and because you know it's frustrating from both sides because we're getting upset for not being able to do something or or see something or hear something or walk or do whatever and then that person's probably getting frustrated at like you know trying to help because they don't have not everybody has the patience and not everybody has empathy to that level as well but do you know the amazing thing that in our in Isaiah chapter 35 verses five and six the amazing thing that it says here it says the eyes of the blind shall open and the ears of the deaf shall be unstopped then the lame shall leap like a deer and the tongue of the dumb shall sing for water shall burst forth in the wilderness and streams in the desert so it just shows that when the great day comes you know like Shay will have 360 vision what is it 320 yeah 2020 vision I think it's 2020 vision yeah yeah yeah hold on you're not an owl but yeah I mean I mean you never know you know you don't know what you're always gonna do honey you never know don't underestimate honey I'm gonna have amplified sound the lady who had sepsis and lost her limbs she's gonna be able to just walk and you know hold her children like the day will come where all of this will no longer be and I think remember that we're born into sin it's easier said than done we're all individuals what I can say for somebody else who's deaf in one ear or has become deaf in one ear um is different because I was born with it.

SPEAKER_01 36:18

So there's you know but the main thing is is when we're struggling is to pray and speak to your father and say I don't know how to deal with this or I'm feeling attacked with this or pray for that person that they have patience or that you know or one of my favorite prayers I always pray with Shay is like Lord when people are offending me make me deaf and blind to that to whatever they're doing so that I don't feel judge or or I don't take it on in my head that's one of my prayers that I always pray I need to start praying that prayer again thank you for reminding me I need to pray that prayer for work that's an excellent prayer why have I not been sometimes you you you you forget your words you know that you you need to say yes amen thank you for that reminder yeah it's true it's it's important to pray I don't think I pray this is definitely not a subject I pray about at all I'm gonna be honest um I'm just used to getting on with it but I've never thought to pray about like God's help you know just to guide me just to guide my vision help me to focus you know there's different type of things yeah and this week my effects has been lack of rest I can feel it in my eyes so by Wednesday it's like I had this kind of slight black or darkness I can't even describe it it's like my eyes looked funny because I'm tired. Um tired is not even a word but yeah and you know it's also to knowing even if you've got difficulties um special needs in any way just to you need to take care of yourself take care of your body um make sure it's getting what it's needs the best way you can because all these things are elements that can affect you and for others do who doesn't who don't necessarily have any um difficulties um physical um maybe you have mental or maybe you just know someone that does um I just pray that this episode will help you with that awareness or I pray that like even if we haven't mentioned anything I pray that the Holy Spirit will help you with that awareness in that moment with anyone you may come across whether you know them or not. Yeah because sometimes you just don't know and don't be scared or kind of like don't be scared or feel like you can't you know be with that like help that person or be do you know what I mean like because some people I feel like they feel like you know they feel a bit scared to help someone that has a disability or they don't want to go near them or they want you know what I mean before you do. Yeah well yeah that's what I'm saying like there's no harm in axing um even like with the elderly some of the elderly don't even want any help but I'll still ask you know if they say no that's fine but you know it's the same thing with someone that's elderly you know you you can ask them and they might say no so you know just yeah let's just love each other the best way we can because that's what Yahweh wants us to do.

SPEAKER_00 39:32

Amen amen amen to that would you like to say a prayer I shall I shall I shall and that's important that you mention about mental disability as well because my mum has Alzheimer's and there's people out there that has dementia which their brain they're losing their memory right which is causing them to not being able to do physical stuff or to think so that's another one as well.

SPEAKER_01 40:05

Definitely yeah so you might be dealing with that you might have a family member and you know so a a lot of us might come across someone in our family with Alzheimer's at some point unfortunately but you know what I mean like or do a a type of dementia guaranteed yeah you know it's it's happening more than ever you know um so yeah it's just for us to to just have that awareness but let me pray heavenly holy and wonderful father in heaven thank you so much Lord for this um wonderful episode that we've been able to dive into today thank you for this subject heavenly father lord and thank you Lord for creating us all different um without us all being different Lord um we'd be the exact same people walking around on this earth and the earth would not never be the same. So thank you Father Lord for creating us all different um whether we have a disability or not Father Lord I want to ask you to please be with all of us Heavenly Father Lord to have an awareness Lord of others Lord who are of a special need in any way whether mental or physical help us Heavenly Father Lord who are supporting others Lord with a special need Lord in heaven help us all with the patience and the guidance Lord to be able to do so. For those of us who do have a special need help us every day Heavenly Father Lord as we maneuver through this world continue to walk with Cece Lord with her hearing continue to walk with me with my vision and any of our listeners Heavenly Father Lord who are who do have any type of disability Lord help them in their daily lives. I pray Heavenly Father Lord that you may please be with those Lord in heaven who are around us or those who may come across in our daily lives Lord in heaven may we not feel judged Lord in heaven may they just even if they want to ask us questions may they do so and help us to be open to answering those questions because education is important and through that Lord in heaven others can learn and they can even pass on that education to others Lord and that's how we spread that understanding to the rest of the world. So Father God I want to thank you Lord once again for this subject and I just pray heavenly Father Lord that you may help us heavenly Father Lord as we journey through life every day.

SPEAKER_00 42:27

Lord thank you for our listeners worldwide and we just pray that we they'll continue to be blessed Lord by what you're placing on our hearts to share with them we love you Lord in your blessed son's name Jesus Christ as we pray amen amen so thank you guys for listening remember to be kind to yourself be kind to others and I'm happy thank you for listening that we've reached our 20th episode um yeah and we'll see you in two weeks we'll see you in two weeks ciao